Monday, December 22, 2008
The Most Beautiful Sight in the World
We had our ultrasound today! It was such a relief for me to see our tiny baby alive and well and hiccupping all over the place. I had myself convinced last week that I had somehow killed the baby. This is mostly because of babycenter.com, where all the mothers have some sort of catastrophe and don't like me because I spoke negatively about Suzie from Survivor.
(I should know better than to lurk around a place that disapproves of people speaking their minds about television characters)
Anyway, as soon as the technician put the wand to my belly, we could see a fully formed human lurking inside there. With ears. And little arms that he or she waved around like mad. I never felt anything so powerful in my life as I did looking at that screen. There's a person. Inside me. For real. This is really happening.
Of course I knew all of this before, but looking at the baby move around really solidified everything. There's a baby in there, and I love that baby so much, so fiercely that I feel completely empowered.