Tuesday, April 29, 2008


My most pressing task yesterday was to make guacamole. I had never done so before, and I put it at the top of my to-do list. I like that. For three years, I have not felt such freedom from worry or responsibility. Just mash avocados with a fork, Katy. What a day.

The feelings of dread and regret are slowly seeping into my head, a whopping two days after graduation, but I just tried to mash them out with that big fork and subdue them. When will the freelance assignments come rolling in? Where will the mortgage payment come from? What if I never publish my book? Mash, mash, mash. It will get done.

I just keep telling myself that it was not a mistake to NOT seek full time employment. I can do this. Mash, mash, mash. By the end, I had a fantastic dish of chunky guac. Today I have a full day of phone interviews and drafts to write, for which I will be paid! Delicious and soothing, guac and peace of mind.


PeaceLoveMath said...


And...yum. Looooove avacados.

When do I get to read your book??

Jane said...

What other flavorings...strong garlic? acidy tomato? sharp onion?

Em said...

I used some avocado in ceviche last week. The first time I have ever bought and eaten one. I tend not to like them (and especially not in guacamole).