Thursday, April 19, 2007

Small tear, big freakout

I just had my last session with my hungry student and my anxious student. It's very sad to let them go, off into the summertime to not hang out with me 8 hours a week anymore. What will I do with myself? I guess the anxious kid will be around when I get back from my honeymoon, but it still feels weird that I won't see these folks every day. It's so interesting how they have moved from major stressors who keep me up at night (how will I tutor them properly? How can I best explain chaos theory to this kid?????) to important parts of my life who I will miss terribly.

Instead, Corey has taken the role of major stressor in my life. It's not entirely his fault. The enormous to-do list of things I never thought I would have to care about (lighting in porta-potties, for example) has taken over my days. I spend long periods of time tracking down twinkle lights in bulk and wind up blaming Corey because I can't locate sheet music for the ceremony musicians. Thankfully, I will leave in ten minutes to go play some rugby and really bang out all my emotions. I intend to come home tonight drained of all sorrows and anxieties, leaving nothing behind but my will to watch Survivor, Fiji.


PeaceLoveMath said...

Yo, just tell me what key the violin part is in, and I will go get my own music. Don't freak out, we will find music! It will all come together beautifully and be wonderful and magical, and at the end of it all you will be married (no matter what)!

Amy said...

Yay for banging out frustrations and emotion. I've done my share of that this week. Turns out being distracted is helping me make better decisions on the pitch; I'm not overthinking everything!